1.4.06
I can't find the appropriate words to describe this feeling. Is it yearning, craving, or just merely missing? Seriously, I never thought I would feel this way, but I guess today proved it all wrong. I think I detach myself from my emotions too much. The misconception that by detaching myself from those emotions, I wouldn't need to feel the pain. But really, its just like wearing a mask to hide behind from reality, while letting everything pile up. And I just didn't dare to face it earlier when I should have. Well now its too late to say what I wanted to say. Its already gone and won't come back; memories are the only things that would remain.
And my new guitar teacher just makes it worse. His voice is extremely monotonous and he is like going through everything i've learnt again. Not to forget that of all the bands I mentioned, he only recognised greenday and only knew one song from it. Gosh I think im going to die of boredom or something. "The next few weeks we will focus on scales" was the nice sentence to end off -.-
Saturday, April 01, 2006

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